The
most interesting fact was that she never tried to identify or specify the
reasons which pushed her to make decisions. She have always been like that,
dealing with everything as they show, finding the best way out of any situation
as soon as possible, not looking for
what might appear in the future, forcing herself to be the one to solve the
matters around her. But in reality, she
was forced by other people's uncertainty, their fear and their loss. She needed
to evaluate what she really needed to do, whom to keep in her life, who truly
loved her, and what emotions to kill in her heart. She never had the chance to
choose what she really wanted, for she had been always influenced by others.
Sometimes, she was even manipulated by them. And they knew how to do that very
well! Despite her first impression about other people, she always gave them the
chance to show her more. She tried to give them depth of character when they
didn’t have any. In the end, however, her first impressions were always down to
the spot! That is a lesson she learned with difficulty, for every time she gave
someone a chance, all they did was disappoint her at the end.
© A Furious Child
